Roxas's Diary Entries
Day 7: Entry 1
It's been a week since I got here. Saïx told me to keep a diary, but he said
nobody would check it. What am I supposed to write about?
Today they told us to go to the Round Room, where we met our new member, No.
XIV. Was I like that when I first got here? I think I was. But I don't remember
Day 8: Entry 2
Axel and I went to Twilight Town today. He taught me a lot.
Before we RTC'd (Returned To the Castle) we swung by the clock tower and had
some sea-salt ice cream. Axel called it the "icing on the cake" after a
successful mission. Well, except there was no cake---just the ice cream.
I don't know what to write in this thing!
Day 9: Entry 3
The past few days, the other members have been showing me how to fight and do
mission stuff. They also told me more about the Organization, and about myself.
I still don't really get what a "heart" is. But apparently, it's a vital piece
of who I am---so I've decided to cooperate. If I collect enough hearts, I can
complete Kingdom Hearts. Then I'll be whole.
Day 14: Entry 4
Me and Axel went on a mission to Twilight Town. Afterwards, we went and had ice
cream again up on the clock tower.
He said friends do stuff like that. Or they laugh together. So does that mean
me and him are friends?
Day 15: Entry 5
The other members have been teaching me more about how to fight and stuff. It's
going, I guess.
Every day after work, I've been meeting Axel at the clock tower to have
sea-salt ice cream. It really is salty! But still sweet, too. How come it
tastes so familiar?
Day 22: Entry 6
Axel is going to some place called Castle Oblivion. He told me because we're
He had to go home early to get ready, and after he left I noticed the word
WINNER on my ice cream stick. I wonder what I won... I'll ask him when I see
Day 23: Entry 7
Axel left before I woke up this morning. I never got to ask him about the ice
I was partnered up with No. XIV for today's mission. Xion wore a hood the whole
time and wouldn't say a word to me. Come to think of it, I didn't have a whole
lot to say, either.
Afterwards I went and had ice cream by myself.
Day 24: Entry 8
I teamed up with No. XIV again today. We finally talked a little---Xion even
said my name for the first time.
Afterwards I had ice cream by myself again. The lady at the shop said you can
trade the WINNER stick for an extra bar. But I can't eat more than one.
Day 25: Entry 9
Today was my third day with Xion. I've gotten to know a little more about her.
That's right---she's a girl, with black hair, and she can use the Keyblade just
I took her out for ice cream afterwards, but I'm saving the WINNER stick. Axel
deserves a reward when he gets back. Xion wants to have ice cream with us from
now on. Maybe we'll be friends.
Day 26: How Long?
I only remember part of this day. I heard somebody sent to Castle Oblivion was
terminated. Saïx said it may have been Axel.
I tried to ask Xigbar about it on the day's mission, and he said nothing's left
of Nobodies once we're gone, because we have no hearts to leave behind. I don't
remember much after that. They say I collapsed and wouldn't wake up...
Day 50: Xion's Seashells
I must have missed a lot. It's like I had the longest dream. I woke up to find
a bunch of seashells by my pillow. I counted them---one for each day they said
I was asleep.
I was wondering who left them there, but then when I got to the clock tower,
Xion gave me another one. I held it up to my ear, and I could hear the ocean...
Why did it sound so familiar?
The stuff I dreamed about felt strangely familiar, too. I remember being in a
white room with somebody the same age as me wearing red clothes...and then he
sort of disappeared into the white.
And there was a girl's voice---she said she knew I'd be "snoozing." Why would
she know that? The voice was a little like Xion's.
Day 51: Annihilated
It sounds like the worst has come to pass: the whole C.O. team, wiped from
existence. It's hard to come to grips with the idea that Axel is gone. I
feel...choked up? I don't know what you'd call it. I've never had this kind of
I went up to the clock tower to have ice cream, but nobody else showed up.
Day 52: Ice Cream Alone
I sit up on the clock tower, but no one comes. Not Axel, not even Xion. That
weird lump in my throat won't go away.
Something else is bothering me. This is gonna sound crazy (good thing this is a
private diary!) but these pictures keep flashing through my head. Not all the
time, just sometimes... Ever since I collapsed.
It happens when I'm awake, too---on missions---so I don't think it's a dream.
Where are the pictures coming from?
Day 71: Axel's Back
After work, Axel turned up. Just like that, out of nowhere. I didn't know what
to say. I thought we'd lost him for good.
We went up to the clock tower and talked for a while. I told him about Xion.
The choked-up sensation has gone away.
Day 72: Ice Cream with Axel
Me and Axel went to Agrabah. He seems different now that he's back from C.O.
Ice cream was just the two of us today.
I wonder when me and Axel and Xion will all get to have ice cream together.
Day 73: Where's Xion?
After I finished my mission I wanted all three of us to have ice cream, but I
couldn't find Xion. It's been at least ten days since I've seen her.
Axel said he'd ask Saïx what was going on. Speaking of Axel, I didn't see him
at the clock tower today.
Day 74: The Three of Us
My job today was to help Axel find Xion. It turns out she had gone missing, but
we managed to find her.
We finally got to all have ice cream together, which was nice, but Xion can't
use her Keyblade anymore. Axel says friends help each other out, so I'm gonna
go on missions with her until she remembers how to work the Keyblade herself.
Day 75: Inseparable
Me and Xion are working together now. The Genie we met in Agrabah said he and
his friend Al are "inseparable." Axel told us best friends can be inseparable
even if they're not always together, but it sounded like he wasn't too sure
about it himself.
I thought Axel knew everything. Oh well...
That reminds me, those weird pictures flashed through my head again while I was
in Agrabah. The guy in red I wrote about before... Has he been to Agrabah or
Day 94: Kingdom Hearts
Xemnas summoned us. Nothing he says ever makes sense to me. He showed us
Kingdom Hearts, a big heart-shaped moon floating up there in the night sky, and
said the human heart will never have power over us. Great...I guess? So why are
we trying to get hearts again?
Axel said I'll understand better once I have a heart, but I'm not so sure...
Day 95: My Past
I went to Agrabah today with Xion. We make a pretty good team now.
Afterwards me and her and Axel talked about us and the other Nobodies. The ones
who make it into the Organization are powerful enough to keep their memories...
But me and Xion can't remember our pasts. What was I like?
Day 96: Out of Trouble
Today's mission was with Xion, in Beast's Castle. I tried loaning her my
Keyblade, and she had no problem using it. That meant I had to fight without
it, but we got the job done.
Afterwards Xion remembered how to summon her own Keyblade, so I guess we're out
of trouble. When we were done, we all had ice cream together.
Day 97: Our Place
Every day, after work, the three of us have been going to our place on top of
the clock tower to have ice cream. We don't talk about much, but I wouldn't
miss these conversations for the world. I wonder if Axel and Xion feel the same
Do the other Organization members have their own routines? It's hard to
Day 117: Special Nobodies
Today it was me and Xigbar. Axel and Xion went out on their own mission.
Xigbar told me that Xion and me are "exceptional"---you know, like, special
Nobodies. Because we can use the Keyblade?
Work dragged on late, so I didn't make it up to the clock tower. I wonder if
Xion and Axel made it.
Those pictures started flashing through my head again on the mission. The boy
in red... What's it all about? Maybe when Xigbar called me "special" he meant
Seriously, though, is Xion experiencing the same thing? It feels weird to ask.
Day 118: Vacation
Today was my first vacation ever. I didn't know what to do with it. Axel said
to do what I like, but all I like is having ice cream with my friends---so
that's what I ended up doing.
Axel leaves tomorrow for some kind of mission. Which reminds me---I still
haven't given him the WINNER stick yet.
Day 119: Something to Protect
Axel has been gone forever. It's been just me and Xion at the clock tower.
While me and Xaldin explored Beast's Castle, we found something he wants to
protect... Xaldin says that's a weakness, but I'm not so sure. What does it
mean to care about something that much? I don't, so it's hard to wrap my head
around the whole idea.
Day 149: WINNER
Today's mission took me to a new world. It was a weird place. I was up on the
clock tower afterwards when Axel turned up after being away forever. He said he
finished that long mission. But this time Xion didn't show.
I was gonna give Axel that WINNER stick, but I should wait until I get another
one. It wouldn't be fair to leave Xion out.
Day 150: Too Precious to Lose
Xion didn't come to the clock tower again today. She and Saïx had some kind of
Axel and I talked for a while about the things we can't bear to lose. Axel
thinks that for Nobodies, it's our pasts, because that's all we have to
remember the pain of losing something. I don't remember my past, but the idea
of losing the present---Axel or Xion---scares me.
Day 151: What Makes Us Different
I ran into Xion in Twilight Town. I guess she messed up a mission pretty bad
the other day, and it's been bugging her.
We went up to the clock tower afterwards. She said me and her are different---
which is pretty obvious if you look at us, but I don't think that's what she
meant. A lot seems to be on her mind, and it's not the same as what's on mine.
Day 152: I Don't Get It
I think Xion might be mad at me, but I don't know why. Axel says girls are
complicated. You can't press the wrong buttons. Like I'm supposed to know what
the right ones are.
Day 153: No Taste for It
It's hard spending time with Xion, and Axel seems busy, too. I've been having
ice cream alone, but it's just not the same. All I taste is the salt, and my
hands get all sticky. It's like I'm going through the motions of eating it just
so I can throw the stick out and get on with life. I must've had about a
hundred of these things, and I still haven't found another WINNER.
I never did find a way to ask Xion about the pictures that go through my head.
I don't really know what to do about anything right now.
Day 171: What's Love?
On my mission at Beast's Castle, Xaldin told me about "love" and the special
power it has over people.
I tried to ask Axel about it, but his explanation didn't make any sense to me.
Every time I ask him about this kind of thing, he tells me I need a heart to
understand. It's like he's dodging the questions.
Day 172: Xion Collapsed
Xion failed her mission and now she's in a deep sleep. I thought they were
lying to me when they told me, but I went to see her, and she really was just
asleep. I left a seashell by her pillow, just like she did for me.
Saïx hates her. I don't know why. Maybe he knows more about her than the rest
of us do.
Those pictures flashed through my mind again on today's mission (the same boy
in red as usual). I guess he's been to Wonderland. I'm still trying to figure
out what it is I'm seeing.
Day 173: Picking Up the Slack
I've decided to work harder while Xion is asleep to pick up some of the slack.
Axel said he asked Saïx about her, but no dice. He did say that Saïx was having
second thoughts about calling her broken, though.
I just hope we get all this drama ironed out soon, so she doesn't have to wake
up to it.
Day 174: Seashells for Her
Xion hasn't woken up, but I'm pulling double duty to make up for it.
Me and Axel talk about the dumbest stuff now. Afterwards we head back to the
castle, and I leave a seashell by Xion's pillow. It would please me to see her
smile when she finds them.
Those pictures flashed through my head again in Never Land. And when I flew, it
felt like I'd done it before. Has the guy in red flown before, is that it?
Day 193: Best Friends
Xion's awake now. The three of us were gonna go get some ice cream after our
mission, but she passed out again, so we had to take her home.
I talked with Axel in her room until she woke up. He said the three of us were
Day 194: Even Far Apart
We've all started going back to our usual spot after work. Sometimes Axel and
Xion are there waiting for me, other times I get there first.
Things have gotten busier for us, so we can't all make it every day. But even
if they're not there, at least now it seems like we're together again. I wonder
if it seems that way to them, too.
I forgot to ask Xion about the pictures in my head again... It was the same kid
in red. Who is he? What does he have to do with me?
Day 224: What's Gotten Into Her?
I think something's wrong with Xion. Is she not feeling well again?
Axel said we should all go to the beach next time we get a vacation. I think he
senses something is wrong, too. That's why he suggested the beach---to make her
Day 225: Something Must Be Wrong
Okay, now I'm really worried about Xion. I told Axel, but all he said was that
she'll get through it.
He knows something is wrong. I bet he's just telling me that to put my mind at
ease. Well, it's not working.
Day 255: Now Axel's Acting Weird
I had ice cream with Axel after work today, but Xion didn't show.
Axel said she got sent on an important mission, but he wouldn't look at me when
he said it. I've been wondering what's wrong with Xion all this time, but now
that I stop and think about it, Axel's not himself either.
Day 256: Xion's Gone Missing
Xion has gone missing, but nobody said anything about her being hurt, so that's
Did she run off? That doesn't make any sense. Xemnas told us not to go after
her. The way Saïx explained it, it's almost like they don't think she's worth
What is going on?
Day 257: He's Avoiding Me
I want to talk to Axel about Xion, but I can't seem to get ten seconds with the
What am I supposed to do? I can't believe he's avoiding me. We're supposed to
Day 276: By the Sea
I don't remember much about today's mission---just that it was by the beach. Or
was it? The mission didn't even feel real.
Me and Axel agreed to start looking for Xion tomorrow.
Day 277: No Sign of Her
I've looked everywhere for Xion, in every world, but there's just no sign of
Where is she? Why did she leave the Organization? I don't get it, any of it.
Day 296: Castle Oblivion
There's one place we haven't checked yet to see if Xion's there---Castle
Oblivion. When I brought it up with Axel, he surprised me by saying that C.O.
is where Xion comes from. I guess he just found out himself.
Is that where she is?
Day 297: Who is That Guy?
I went to Castle Oblivion to find Xion, but I don't remember anything about it.
Axel said I collapsed as soon as I got there.
I woke up in Twilight Town, and incredibly enough, Xion was there. But she
wasn't alone---there was this guy with her, and he was wearing the
Organization's cloak. I could tell by his build that he wasn't one of us,
though. Who is he?
Day 298: Some Other Way
I don't believe it. Axel attacked Xion. There had to have been some other way.
I know she's acting weird, but I hardly recognize Axel these days either.
What's going through their heads? I feel so left out.
Day 299: Sora?
Xemnas told me that "Sora" is the connection between me and Xion. But just who
exactly is Sora?
Day 300: No Words
For the first time in a while, the three of us met up on the clock tower. None
of us really knew what to say.
We used to talk each other's ears off, but I guess those days are gone.
So much has happened lately that I've been forgetting to write about those
pictures in my head. Now it happens even when I'm not on missions. More often,
They even show up in my dreams. Xion told me she has dreams, too. Is all of
Day 301: My Dream
I dream all the time now, but I don't sleep well. I wake up tired every day. I
guess that makes them nightmares, not dreams.
Xion and Axel don't come to the clock tower anymore. I thought maybe if I got
everything off my chest with them, I might stop having the nightmares...but so
much for testing that theory.
Day 321: No Energy Left
I feel so tired---almost disconnected from my body. The dreams have gotten
stranger. Now I wake up with water on my cheeks. I don't know how it got there,
but I think there's something really wrong with me.
Today I was teamed up with Xion. She seems to be in a lot better shape than me.
We had ice cream together, something we hadn't done in a while.
Day 322: Another Dream
I had another dream. My head feels heavy.
I want to have ice cream with Xion and Axel again.
Day 352: Us and the Sunset
Me and Xion and Axel had ice cream. The sunset was beautiful.
I don't have to write anything else down, because I'll never forget this day.
Day 353: Broken Trust
Axel let Xion leave the Organization. Like he wanted her to go.
She's a puppet? A mirror that reflects me? He's talking nonsense. I can't trust
Day 354: Who Am I?
I don't understand the Organization. I don't understand Axel... I understand
myself least of all. Why do I keep coming back to the castle?
Me and Xion are special, connected by "Sora." If she's a puppet, maybe I am,
I don't know what I am.
Day 355: I Am
I have to know who I am...
I am DONE WITH THIS
Day 357: Three Again?
I'm going to set Kingdom Hearts free and find my way to Sora. I'm going to get
Xion back. The three of us will have ice cream together again--- I know it.